Wednesdays full of Wisdom - He is jealous for me

He is jealous for me. Love's like a hurricane I am a tree. Bending beneath the weight of His wind and mercy. When all of a sudden I am unaware of these afflictions eclipsed by glory, and I realize just how beautiful you and and how great you affections are for me. And oh, how He loves us oh, oh how He loves us. How He loves us so.

-Kim Walker

The love that God has for his children always leaves me amazed. The God of the universe is jealous....FOR ME!!!! He loves us so much. Even when we turn away and do things that hurt His heart, He is right there, drawing us back to Himself. All the while being so jealous for our time and adoration. He just wants us to love and serve Him. And after all the amazing things He has done for us, it should not be difficult. Each day our lips should bring Him praise. He saved us and loves us more than we could ever fathom. But yet somehow, as humans, we always turn back to the things that dishonor and hurt Him. There have been so many times that I have turned away from the love of God, looked Him in the face and said, "I'm sorry, you're not enough." Just thinking about that hurts my heart.

What I wish we could all understand is, He is enough. He is everything. He is all consuming. He is all powerful. He is full of love. He IS love according to His word. Christ is sufficient. Jesus is enough. There is nothing that I need outside of Him. He is jealous for me! He loves me! He wants me to pursue Him each and everyday. He wants to teach me things and show me things. He wants me to grow in wisdom and in love. He wants me to love Him with all that I am! He wants me to reach other people with His love. He wants to use me for His amazing and perfect will! He is enough. Always.

I just get so lost in wonder when I think about the God of the universe being jealous for me. Me. I am nothing. I have turned from Him. My sin put Him on that cross. I have turned from Him time and and time again. I have hurt Him likely more than I have made Him proud. And yet...He is here. He draws me to Himself. All He wants is for me to put Him first. All He wants is all of me. And why should I withhold myself from Him? Only in Him do we experience true and lasting joy, peace like nothing I've ever known, and a confidence to know that in Him I can do all things and never will be shaken.

After all that I have done, all He wants is to forgive me and have me all to Himself. He wants me to come home. He wants my heart to be wholly His. He wants me to live to the calling that I have received through Him. Life can be so full and abundant if only we could keep our eyes focused on the cross. My darkest hours in life and hardest times were most certainly the times that I chose to walk away from the Lord and search out love and acceptance from other sources. If only we could see...He is all we need.

Dear Heavenly father,

I thank you for you unfailing and amazingly perfect love. I thank you for all that you do for me and how you never give up on me. I am so sorry for all of the times that I have walked away from you and thought that I could make it on my own. Thank you for your jealous heart. Thank you for never leaving me, even when I choose to walk away from you. I love you so much Lord, and I'm so thankful to call myself yours. Help me keep my eyes focused on you at all times. I love you. Amen