To my sweet boy,
Tomorrow we will meet for the first time. I cannot tell you what joy fills my heart when I think about holding you in my arms and looking into your eyes. You are so loved, and your daddy and I are so proud of you for how well you have done throughout this difficult pregnancy. I just want you to know that you are such a good boy and we are so excited to meet you.
Today is June 20th, 2013.
I have been in the hospital since June 3rd with a pregnancy complication called placenta previa, which causes bleeding that can be very dangerous. I have had multiple bleeding episodes over the past couple of weeks, and now that I am 34 weeks tomorrow, my doctors feel that it's best to deliver Grayson by c-section, before things get worse.
So, tomorrow I meet my son.
Looking back over this pregnancy, with all it's ups and downs, I can't help but think about the future as well. To think about the life my son will have, and what it will be like to be his mommy. I am so excited for all of the adventures to come. Soon this pregnancy will seem like a faint memory, and the joy set before me, my sweet smiling son, will be all I can see. I wonder what it will be like to see him tomorrow, and the joy that will fill my heart when he smiles at me for the very first time. I think about his first noises and his first words, his first steps and his first birthday. I think about what friends he will have and what type of personality he will develop. I wonder about his relationship with the Lord, and I pray that he will cling to Jesus all the days of his life.
We are just so blessed to begin this journey
and are filled with so much joy, thinking about the days to come.
Dear Heavenly Father,
Tomorrow is the appointed time that you have set to bring Grayson into this world. We know that you are in complete control. So I just ask for a perfect delivery tomorrow, and perfect health for our sweet lil boy. I ask that you guide my doctor's hands and give them complete wisdom that only comes from You. And Lord, I just thank you so much for the gift of this little man, and I give him back to You, because I know he is safest in your hands.
Amen.
