"Praise the LORD, my soul. All my inmost being, praise his holy name. Praise the LORD, my soul, and forget not all his benefits- He who forgives all your sins and heals all your diseases, who redeems your life from the pit, and crowns you with love and compassion, who satisfies your desires with good things!" ♥
Today I spent about an hour in the basement of a house on campus...this room is declared the campus prayer room. Its a quiet room with lights and soft worship music, along with a prayer request wall, a praise wall, a map of the world to pray over, bibles, post-it notes, and other quiet time prayer tools. This room is a powerful place. Simply walking into it, I could feel the presence of the Lord. It is a great spot to have a time of prayer, worship, and meditation before the Lord.
During my time in the prayer room today, the Lord really met with me in a powerful and convicting way. Sitting in His presence, He revealed to me how truly lost and depraved we are without Him. How evil and disgusting we are without the life changing power of His love. Truly, the times I have walked away from Him, and the times that I have sinned or been overcome with pride, selfishness, or hate, I can see just how desperate I really am for the Lord. Even if I do not spend enough time in His presence, in His word, or in prayer, my sinful nature rises up and it is not until I hit my knees before the Lord once again, that I am changed. That is what happened today. I was nearly in tears, thinking of how many times I have hurt the heart of God. I was disgusted with my sinful nature and with my humanity. Nothing good comes from my own doing. I am imperfect, unholy, and worthless without Him. I cannot live, I cannot breathe, I cannot function, I cannot love, I cannot do one good thing, without the Lord. All good things flow from Him. How lost we truly are without Him!
So, today, I am reminded of my desperation for the Lord. In Him alone we find our life, we are taught how to love, and we are saved. Nothing surpasses the love of Christ. And nothing is possible without Him.
Dear Father,
I thank you for you love, and for your reminder today that I am completely lost without you. I need you, Oh Lord. Speak to me each day, correct me in my wrong doings, and fill me with your love. I thank you for never leaving me and never giving up on me, even when I have walked away or fallen down. You are always there, Lord. I realize that nothing good comes from me or from my heart, but your love is what makes me whole. I pray that you would show me how to better shine your life changing, powerful love to those around me. Help me to deny myself and my pride, and follow you in everything that I do. Thank you so much, God for all of your provisions, and for your grace in my life.
I love you with all that I am.
Amen.
